Shitty Reality

Life for Big Momma sucks right now. I know it's hard all the way around. But seriously hard for me and mine right now. Electric has been shut off, having to go to food pantries to get food to feed Lil Momma. All this drama and bull shit and I'm working full time. It's crazy. I should be able to afford this things. I have a job. Why is it not happening? Big Momma is beyond stressed. I'm in need of a miracle. Yet I know it's not coming. It never does.

Rainy days

The weather today is complete crap. And all I want to do is sit in my bed and read a book. The chances of that happening are slim to silch.
And being 31 years old you would think Big Momma is wise enough to dress properly. And sadly I'm not. LOL I'm wearing flip flops and a thin top freezing my ass off. (That's a LOT of freezing)
Today is one of those days where you wish you didnt have to get out of your jammies and you could just sit at home and do nothing all damn day. Drink hot chocolate and do homework (which I need to do) and catch up on your Netflix.
And yet here I find myself at work, freezing, drink hot chocolate and wishing I was there, in bed with my Lil Momma watching that movie.
Hopefully you all are expereincing better weather and are out there enjoying your day as opposed to sitting in side like my poor self. ;)

Wanted: A childs energy

Well the heading says it all, Lil Momma has all the energy in the world. How do I feed off that for myself?
Big Momma is flat out of energy for anything right now. LOL, I need to do laundry, clean the house, and do dishes. And yet here I sit on the computer playing games on facebook and watching a movie. ;)
If anyone has a suggestion on how to naturally gain some energy lease let me know. heheheheh

MIA

Well here I go again all MIA on you. Life's been crazy. Sister living with me for a while cause of crazy man situation's, me going to school and working, Lil Momma with Girl Scouts, Gymnastics, Swimming and regular school crap. Things have been a crazy town here.
So here I find myself saying yet again I'm gonna get better at this.
Wish me luck.

What this girl wants

What does Big Momma want? I have been asked that all day. Cause honestly I got what they want. Otherwise why keep texting after I tell you exactly where you can go and what you can do when you get there.
So when asked what it is that I want, I am going to start saying the following,
"Not much. I'm a simple girl. I want what all girls want. I want them to look at me like they look at her."
Who's her? That is simple, the Leading Lady in the movies. What movie? All the movies. He always sits in the back round. Still apart of her life, just her best friend, the one that she doesn't realize she wants yet. The one that is dreaming after her. Wishing that she would wake up and realize the one she "thinks" she want is a dick. The man that will be there even when she's at her lowest, covered in the proverbial mud all over her face, at her lowest of low, when all others are laughing.
He looks at her like:
Your the one, the only one. Your the one that can fulfill all my dreams, and when I love you I give you EVERYTHING. I want to walk down the beach with you and hold your hand until we are 100. I want to be your air as your my air. Your my soulmate and I have waited centuries for you.
That's what I want. Is that asking too much?

Cold and Windy

Big Momma doesn't mind being cold, but it's FREEZING out side right now and I'm not a happy girl. Lol

I'm starting school again soon, working full time still, and here's a surprise still single.

But I'm standing strong, cold, but strong!

Valentines Blues

My sister is recently single. And she's facebook stalking her ex and her ex's new woman. Seeing what he bought the new girl, which happens to be the exact same thing. Well this is what I have to say to that:
That's the new girls problem she's getting second rate gifts. He clearly didn't have the brains to buy her something original. The new girl should be pissed not her.
And besides you should remember that it's more special to get gifts from your man randomly say on a Tuesday, not just the one day a year that society says for them too.
I don't let the day bother me. It doesn't make sense too because no matter what, it's gonna be shitty the next year too.

Being Single

Let's face it, Big Momma is not happy she's single. It sucks. Anyone who is single will tell you that. And worst yet being single and a mother! Not only does it make going out to meet someone hard, you can't go out all the time (really NOT complaining about that part) but you aren't able to meet people like you used to do.
How does a single mother meet a man? Well I don't know about All single mothers, but this one only has the option left of internet dating. And I know some success stories personally. I have friends who have met on the internet, got married and are miserable just like the rest of the couples in the world. ;)
Big Momma on the other hand, I have the WORST luck. I meet men who think that all woman on the internet are easy, and stupid. That I would just toss Little Momma off to a baby sitter and go running with them where ever they want me to. Or on the first date they will just get laid or a B.J.
Now I don't care how many people actually are like that. But it's so not me. And when these men read my profile that clearly says that I don't want a casual fling, that I'm looking for the real thing, why don't they believe it? They still waste my time. And the worst part about it........
I'm really looking for the real thing. I want a man to spend the rest of my time with. I want a partner in life, someone to have more children with and just waste the rest of my life with.
Damn the internet, damn perverts, and damn dating.

Only My Child

Big Momma get's a call at work, my co worker gives me the work phone and low and behold, it's the nurse. Lil Momma has thrown up in music class, and apparently looks fine but could I come get her. She's fever free and acting normal but because she said she got sick she gets to go home.
So Big Momma has to leave work and go get Lil Momma. I pick her up from the school and that Snot (said with total love for my sly ass little child), is just fine. She's playing in the nurses office and just "hanging out". She say's to me, "This is my favorite place at school, are we going home now so I can watch Hannah Montana?"
Are you kidding me? Like seriously??? So I find out that this kid is FAKING it to go home and be able to watch that damn show.
So now she get's tv, after three days of none, and that she needs to EARN it, max of two shows.
Forewarning you all, watch your kids, they are all slick little brats ;)

Reading

I feel like I stopped reading when I had Little Momma. I used to read all the time. A book a day about. It was crazy. And now not at all. So I have started up again and thought I would share with you the wonderful things I choose to read, or the not so wonderful whichever the case maybe. lol.
I just read "The Help"
AMAZING. I really really enjoyed that it didn't gloss over what was going on. That people didn't treat their "help" or "maids" very well. And then again some others treated them very well and it was them with the issues. Or even in general how some women just cant stand up and use their voice.
How no matter what color, religion, sexual orientation, you should always stand up for what you believe in and what is right. Not to let some man, or other overbearing person make you feel that your opinions and feelings are wrong and you don't have a mind to speak.
Sadly this book also showed the ignorance of people, and how small mindedness can hurt others in every way.
I recommend this book to anyone that likes to read. And I even think it's a good book for young adults. Show them how their actions effect themselves and others. No matter how big or little, everything we do is important.

Who's Reading

So every time I get on I check and see if someone is reading, and YOU ARE! Which I totally love! Makes my day every time I see that I have a reader. No matter how far away you are.
Honestly even if you click on this page by mistake and get here and decide to just look around. :)
So I want to take this moment to say "Hey!" and please feel free to add yourself to my page as a friend. No matter how far away! And leave comments. I would love to hear what you have to say. Even if it doesn't agree with what I'm saying! lol

Little Momma's Turning 6!

Big Momma has to admit that she does a big deal on birthdays. I cant help it. Growing up mine where always great. Sleep overs, movies, gossip! LOL everything that a girl could love. BUT always at my house, never out somewhere, like Chucky Cheese or what not. But that's okay. I have great birthday memories. And I try my hardest for Little Momma to have the same. So I spend a huge bundle for her to have her party places, and still end up doing the sleep overs.
But this year I'm at a loss. I can only do so many places, cause let's be honest it's not like I can pay for 10 kids to go to Disney. (SHHHHHEEEEEESSSSHHHHH I cant even afford for us to go to Disney! LOL) But I don't want to copy parties either. Like her last to parties that she was invited to where at the local Gymnastics place as well as at the local Science Center. BOTH where amazing. And she wants to have parties there. But I feel like it's too soon. Like maybe next year and the year after. Cause it's still gonna be all the same kids. So that leaves the movies or Build A Bear, both at like $12 per child, with a minimum of 6 kids.
So this is my thought, who wants to go into business with me for something like this!!!!!!!!! LOL seriously! We could make a fortune at $12 a pop! Sheesh let's make it $10 so it's the cheaper option and we would still make out like a bandit.
So who knows, research time. Gotta get it all planned out and invites out before the kids go on "Winter Recess" so I know what is what.
Gotta love being a parent. :)