Big Momma had a amazing Christmas and hopes you did too. Lil Momma got all she wanted and more. Lil Momma is one spoiled girlie! But Christmas yet again brings no card from Daddy. Lil Momma again expressed how much she missed him. I stood strong though ladies. And if I can do it you can do it! Keep your head up, you know your the shit! :)
So Lil Momma's Daddy is getting out of "vacation" soon. Wants to be in her life and come see her. Fine. Big Momma will let that happen. But hurt her and Big Momma will bury you under the rabbit house in the country house. Don't mess with Big Momma's baby.
Lil Momma's advice on Daddy's coming back? I wish I had the right words, the right things to say. But I don't. Right now I'm living the let him fuck it up on his own logic. Let's see how that goes. After say 55 days, I will let you know the words of wisdom that I have after doing it myself, lol.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Little Words, Big Ache's
My three year old told me today that she missed her Daddy and loved her Daddy. Man she has NEVER seen. Someone who has never been there for her. Not once.
A man who denied her because she was half white. (Guess what Black men, when you fuck a white girl that's what happens! Who'da thunk it.)
Breaks my heart every time she does it. And it happens more than I would like.
I know this doesn't only happen to me. So I wanted to tell ya what Big Momma does to keep her head up in these instances.
First, I don't let her see that it hurts me. I (I know I know) lie and tell her that her Daddy misses her to and cant come and see her but he wants too.
Second, I fix myself a nice strong drink. Taking big gulps.
Third, when she's not around, I say, out loud, what I want to say to him.
I tell him what a cock sucker he is. And how worthless he is. And when, Goddess willing, I see him again all the painful things I'm going to do to him.
Then I take another drink and I thank him. For giving me such a wonderful and caring child that I take care of everyday. A child who only knows love and not anger, for a man who doesn't care for her. And I thank him for giving me the opportunity to see what a Super Woman I am for raising her. And I kiss my daughter and tell her how much I love her and wait for the next time.
So my Super Women, we can and we will do this. Because we are strong, amazing, and far more superior then men.
A man who denied her because she was half white. (Guess what Black men, when you fuck a white girl that's what happens! Who'da thunk it.)
Breaks my heart every time she does it. And it happens more than I would like.
I know this doesn't only happen to me. So I wanted to tell ya what Big Momma does to keep her head up in these instances.
First, I don't let her see that it hurts me. I (I know I know) lie and tell her that her Daddy misses her to and cant come and see her but he wants too.
Second, I fix myself a nice strong drink. Taking big gulps.
Third, when she's not around, I say, out loud, what I want to say to him.
I tell him what a cock sucker he is. And how worthless he is. And when, Goddess willing, I see him again all the painful things I'm going to do to him.
Then I take another drink and I thank him. For giving me such a wonderful and caring child that I take care of everyday. A child who only knows love and not anger, for a man who doesn't care for her. And I thank him for giving me the opportunity to see what a Super Woman I am for raising her. And I kiss my daughter and tell her how much I love her and wait for the next time.
So my Super Women, we can and we will do this. Because we are strong, amazing, and far more superior then men.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Happy Saturday
As a single mother going out and doing things is rough. I'm sure all the rest of you Super Women know what I'm talking about. So another Saturday is here and is going and I will be home with Lil Momma.
Now ladies, I'm gonna say this many times. I love my Lil Momma from the bottom of my heart and soul.
BUT, I wont lie and tell you sometimes I wonder what life would have been like without her. Would I be going out and doing my thing? Titties on the bar for free drinks from a tall, chocolate man. Or would I be home still.
This Saturday I will be home. With my Lil Momma doing our thang. Playing around the house, getting ready for the holiday. Another one without her donor. Which is fine by me but not by her. Poor thing misses him something fierce. That's another discussion.
Just want to shout out to all those other Super Women out there that it's okay to feel trapped, and sometimes wishing for something else. Every one of us know deep down that if we had a choice to do it all over again, we wouldn't. Because without our Lil Momma's or Lil Poppa's we wouldn't be the Super Women we are.
So tonight when my Lil Momma is in bed and I'm having a drink to unwind for the night. I will toast to all of us Super Women out there, Momma's or not, blessing the lives that we have.
Love ya Bitches!
Now ladies, I'm gonna say this many times. I love my Lil Momma from the bottom of my heart and soul.
BUT, I wont lie and tell you sometimes I wonder what life would have been like without her. Would I be going out and doing my thing? Titties on the bar for free drinks from a tall, chocolate man. Or would I be home still.
This Saturday I will be home. With my Lil Momma doing our thang. Playing around the house, getting ready for the holiday. Another one without her donor. Which is fine by me but not by her. Poor thing misses him something fierce. That's another discussion.
Just want to shout out to all those other Super Women out there that it's okay to feel trapped, and sometimes wishing for something else. Every one of us know deep down that if we had a choice to do it all over again, we wouldn't. Because without our Lil Momma's or Lil Poppa's we wouldn't be the Super Women we are.
So tonight when my Lil Momma is in bed and I'm having a drink to unwind for the night. I will toast to all of us Super Women out there, Momma's or not, blessing the lives that we have.
Love ya Bitches!
Friday, December 18, 2009
Big Momma
I'm Big Momma, and I have a lot to say! What is the best way to get it out there? Blog it Big Momma. So here I am. To start with I'm a single mother who will be celebrating her last year in the 20's in 2010. Not happy with that mess at all. I know all the ladies out there know where I'm coming from. But I'm happy with my life. Lovin being single, working and school on top of being the Best Mother in the world to my three soon to be four year old. Nothing can touch me. I'm a Star Playa baby! Stay tuned to my words of wisdom, and random b*&^%ing's!
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