My three year old told me today that she missed her Daddy and loved her Daddy. Man she has NEVER seen. Someone who has never been there for her. Not once.
A man who denied her because she was half white. (Guess what Black men, when you fuck a white girl that's what happens! Who'da thunk it.)
Breaks my heart every time she does it. And it happens more than I would like.
I know this doesn't only happen to me. So I wanted to tell ya what Big Momma does to keep her head up in these instances.
First, I don't let her see that it hurts me. I (I know I know) lie and tell her that her Daddy misses her to and cant come and see her but he wants too.
Second, I fix myself a nice strong drink. Taking big gulps.
Third, when she's not around, I say, out loud, what I want to say to him.
I tell him what a cock sucker he is. And how worthless he is. And when, Goddess willing, I see him again all the painful things I'm going to do to him.
Then I take another drink and I thank him. For giving me such a wonderful and caring child that I take care of everyday. A child who only knows love and not anger, for a man who doesn't care for her. And I thank him for giving me the opportunity to see what a Super Woman I am for raising her. And I kiss my daughter and tell her how much I love her and wait for the next time.
So my Super Women, we can and we will do this. Because we are strong, amazing, and far more superior then men.
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