Okay so seriously. I read this thing at work today that got posted onto my Facebook, yes I play on the computer at work, as a matter of fact I'm writing this at work! LOL Okay so anyway I'm attching this for ya'll.
A woman, big and beautiful for that matter. A amazing singer and a great actress. She was in "Why Did I Get Married" By Tyler Perry (my future husband and father of the rest of my children! hehe) Jill Scott, http://www.s2smagazine.com/node/2686, said in a article in Sister to Sister, that seeing interracial relationships make her twinge on the inside. She has a black friend who is successful, intelligent and good looking. Well this friend of her's got married to a white woman. And she admits in this article that she felt a "twinge" that a black man married a white women. She even went as far as mentioning slavery.
Now I'm not a slave owner. I dont know about ya'll. But I have never, not once, in my 29 years owned a slave. And neither have my parents or my grand parents. But I have loved a black man. I have a child with a black man. I have black female friends that are with white men and I dont twinge. I dont remind her that slavery was in her blood and she shouldnt do that. Could someone explain to me why slavery (which she wasnt never a perticipant in willing or otherwise) is still a issue today? Please have pride in your heratige. Thank your ancestors for the evil that they lived for you to have better. And get better for yourself, dont dwell. Do you really think that is what it was about? Dwelling and holding yourself's back still? And for that matter point out to me a pure race. I'm proudly part German, Native America, Irish and god only knows what else. Most of all I'm proud to be a Woman who loves people for who they are. Not what they are.
Now I know a big concern is that "White Women are taking all the good Brothers." Well honey, and I will say this to ANYONE, if you treated that good Brother right he wouldnt have gone to SOMEONE ELSE. White or regardless. Men like women will only take so much. You cant treat them like crap and expect them to keep you in the Bling if you dont work for yourself. What's wrong with buying him some stuff every once in a while too? Reality Check: You dont live in a BET/MTV video. You live in real life. Get a clue.
Now on that note. Big Momma is listening to the radio at work and getting ready to leave her and go to Math. Gotta get that degree to get that dream job baby!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
Crazy Last Couple of Months
Well not only is Lil Momma 4 years old now, but Big Momma is 29. Wow how the time fly's.
Things here have not been so bad.
For the 29th me and some of my favorite girls in the world went to a local Casino and had a great time. I didn't win anything, not that I wasn't trying, but one of my friends that I have known sense the 4th grade won about $800. I had some spa treatments and felt like a million dollars. Love those full body massages! LOL No happy endings but still the shit. Big Momma just closes her eyes and lets all the tension go out of her body. After one of those even I feel good for about a week.
I'm going to therapy (LOL) to work through a number of my issues. Some that will and some that wont be discussed on here. I recommend it for any one! Single Momma or not! Therapy is the shit. I go and talk to someone who doesn't know any of the parties that I'm talking about. She listen's and basically I bounce the shit off her. She doeskin care how the other people feel. She wants to know how I feel about it. And most the time the answer is Pissed, Livid, or I'm over caring. We are getting into some intensive stuff here soon, I like the rest of you have gone through some shit that I wish that no one would ever have to go through. Hoping that I took the lumps so that Lil Momma doesn't have to. And I don't know how that's gonna be. I was warned that it's gonna be rough.
There has been Baby Daddy Drama though, let's call it BDD for short. :) He is in short a worthless no good SOB. I have told him to leave us alone and to never come around Lil Momma or I will have to go ghetto on his ass. He not only doesn't show for the times that he said he was gonna come and see her. He has me call him for her. On a specific day at a certain time. Then the MF doesn't answer the phone and text's me two hours later saying that his ringer was off. Are you kidding me? You want a call at a certain time and you look at the clock and see that it didn't happen. Here's some common damn sense. Call that person! Hello! So Lil Momma has been crying for him for a bit now. Big Momma hugs her and let's her cry it out and tells her that she's loved by a lot of people. And it's okay to miss him and cry for him. It's okay to love him. But there is nothing that we can do to make him come see her. And we just have to wait. Over Big Momma's dead body will he be able to come see her. She deserves way better then that MF and she will get it. I will make sure of it.
On a happier note. Big Momma will be graduating in May with her first Associates Degree. I'm really looking forward to that. It's gonna be good for me to see that there is actually something for all the work I have put in. At times I feel like I'm being pulled in a million directions and not getting anywhere. I work 40 hrs a week and then I'm a single mother. (Wouldn't do it any other way) But then I go to school too. Where is my Big Momma time? When do I get to sit back and relax. And then I get this nice light at the end of my first tunnel. I'm going back after I graduate and I'm going for another year and getting my second Associates Degree. And I'm so looking forward to that. To be able to leave my shitty job and get paid for doing something that I love. Not having to go to school any more and being able to pay my bills and not live check to check.
And trust me ya'll! If Big Momma can do it so can you!
Any of us can do ANYTHING. We just have to stick with it and go for it.
I have faith! So should you!
Things here have not been so bad.
For the 29th me and some of my favorite girls in the world went to a local Casino and had a great time. I didn't win anything, not that I wasn't trying, but one of my friends that I have known sense the 4th grade won about $800. I had some spa treatments and felt like a million dollars. Love those full body massages! LOL No happy endings but still the shit. Big Momma just closes her eyes and lets all the tension go out of her body. After one of those even I feel good for about a week.
I'm going to therapy (LOL) to work through a number of my issues. Some that will and some that wont be discussed on here. I recommend it for any one! Single Momma or not! Therapy is the shit. I go and talk to someone who doesn't know any of the parties that I'm talking about. She listen's and basically I bounce the shit off her. She doeskin care how the other people feel. She wants to know how I feel about it. And most the time the answer is Pissed, Livid, or I'm over caring. We are getting into some intensive stuff here soon, I like the rest of you have gone through some shit that I wish that no one would ever have to go through. Hoping that I took the lumps so that Lil Momma doesn't have to. And I don't know how that's gonna be. I was warned that it's gonna be rough.
There has been Baby Daddy Drama though, let's call it BDD for short. :) He is in short a worthless no good SOB. I have told him to leave us alone and to never come around Lil Momma or I will have to go ghetto on his ass. He not only doesn't show for the times that he said he was gonna come and see her. He has me call him for her. On a specific day at a certain time. Then the MF doesn't answer the phone and text's me two hours later saying that his ringer was off. Are you kidding me? You want a call at a certain time and you look at the clock and see that it didn't happen. Here's some common damn sense. Call that person! Hello! So Lil Momma has been crying for him for a bit now. Big Momma hugs her and let's her cry it out and tells her that she's loved by a lot of people. And it's okay to miss him and cry for him. It's okay to love him. But there is nothing that we can do to make him come see her. And we just have to wait. Over Big Momma's dead body will he be able to come see her. She deserves way better then that MF and she will get it. I will make sure of it.
On a happier note. Big Momma will be graduating in May with her first Associates Degree. I'm really looking forward to that. It's gonna be good for me to see that there is actually something for all the work I have put in. At times I feel like I'm being pulled in a million directions and not getting anywhere. I work 40 hrs a week and then I'm a single mother. (Wouldn't do it any other way) But then I go to school too. Where is my Big Momma time? When do I get to sit back and relax. And then I get this nice light at the end of my first tunnel. I'm going back after I graduate and I'm going for another year and getting my second Associates Degree. And I'm so looking forward to that. To be able to leave my shitty job and get paid for doing something that I love. Not having to go to school any more and being able to pay my bills and not live check to check.
And trust me ya'll! If Big Momma can do it so can you!
Any of us can do ANYTHING. We just have to stick with it and go for it.
I have faith! So should you!
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