Crazy Last Couple of Months

Well not only is Lil Momma 4 years old now, but Big Momma is 29. Wow how the time fly's.
Things here have not been so bad.
For the 29th me and some of my favorite girls in the world went to a local Casino and had a great time. I didn't win anything, not that I wasn't trying, but one of my friends that I have known sense the 4th grade won about $800. I had some spa treatments and felt like a million dollars. Love those full body massages! LOL No happy endings but still the shit. Big Momma just closes her eyes and lets all the tension go out of her body. After one of those even I feel good for about a week.
I'm going to therapy (LOL) to work through a number of my issues. Some that will and some that wont be discussed on here. I recommend it for any one! Single Momma or not! Therapy is the shit. I go and talk to someone who doesn't know any of the parties that I'm talking about. She listen's and basically I bounce the shit off her. She doeskin care how the other people feel. She wants to know how I feel about it. And most the time the answer is Pissed, Livid, or I'm over caring. We are getting into some intensive stuff here soon, I like the rest of you have gone through some shit that I wish that no one would ever have to go through. Hoping that I took the lumps so that Lil Momma doesn't have to. And I don't know how that's gonna be. I was warned that it's gonna be rough.
There has been Baby Daddy Drama though, let's call it BDD for short. :) He is in short a worthless no good SOB. I have told him to leave us alone and to never come around Lil Momma or I will have to go ghetto on his ass. He not only doesn't show for the times that he said he was gonna come and see her. He has me call him for her. On a specific day at a certain time. Then the MF doesn't answer the phone and text's me two hours later saying that his ringer was off. Are you kidding me? You want a call at a certain time and you look at the clock and see that it didn't happen. Here's some common damn sense. Call that person! Hello! So Lil Momma has been crying for him for a bit now. Big Momma hugs her and let's her cry it out and tells her that she's loved by a lot of people. And it's okay to miss him and cry for him. It's okay to love him. But there is nothing that we can do to make him come see her. And we just have to wait. Over Big Momma's dead body will he be able to come see her. She deserves way better then that MF and she will get it. I will make sure of it.
On a happier note. Big Momma will be graduating in May with her first Associates Degree. I'm really looking forward to that. It's gonna be good for me to see that there is actually something for all the work I have put in. At times I feel like I'm being pulled in a million directions and not getting anywhere. I work 40 hrs a week and then I'm a single mother. (Wouldn't do it any other way) But then I go to school too. Where is my Big Momma time? When do I get to sit back and relax. And then I get this nice light at the end of my first tunnel. I'm going back after I graduate and I'm going for another year and getting my second Associates Degree. And I'm so looking forward to that. To be able to leave my shitty job and get paid for doing something that I love. Not having to go to school any more and being able to pay my bills and not live check to check.
And trust me ya'll! If Big Momma can do it so can you!
Any of us can do ANYTHING. We just have to stick with it and go for it.
I have faith! So should you!