Happy New Years

I hope everyone out there sends out 2013 in a way that they love. I wish you all good luck in this New Year. I know for Lil Momma and I 2014 is going to be amazing. I already feel like $100 and I still have more to lose. I have amazing family and friends. What more could a girl ask for? (aside from a job hehehe) Just remember everything happens for a reason. I hope all your everything's bring good health and lots of love.

Looks a lot like Christmas!!!!!

Got a crazy amount of snow yesterday. So today I'm gonna take Lil Momma sledding. It's gonna be great. I have NEVER been sledding with her before. She's gone sledding but not with me. I usually sit by and watch all the fun. Today I'm gonna join in with my behind that is over 100 pounds less. I'm very excited. It's gonna be fun. I got some presents all wrapped up for Sage. I'm excited to get to Christmas so that I can play with some of her toys. LOL I hope everyone has a Healthy and Happy Holiday. Stay safe everyone.

Holiday Season

Why is it the holiday season comes so soon? Why isn't there more time in the year? I'm trying so hard to find a new job and sadly Big Momma is over qualified or under qualified. Luck has it that Lil Momma has people in her life that are there for her and we are making sure she has a great Christmas. Big Momma has a great job raising her baby because she has told me more then once, even in this year alone that she has what she wants, her family. How I got so lucky I don't know.

What's wrong with people?

I'm reading things every day about children who are getting killed by their parents or foster parents because of things their parents have done. es. What is wrong with people? Why aren't people doing anything for these kids? Isn't this why there are things like the police and child protective services? Why aren't the neighbors, schools or whomever else stepping up and doing things that they should be doing? It takes a village to raise a child. Where are these villages? Why aren't they stopping this from happening? It breaks my heart on a daily basis to read these things. Please people open your eyes.

Thankful

Instead of griping and complaining about things, things month I'm going to try to say the things I'm grateful for. Sense today is the fifth I'm going to do five today. 1) I'm thankful for Lil Momma. She's amazing and every day I'm reminded as to why I'm happy to be alive. Because she is my air. And she's soooooo smart and beautiful. 2) I'm thankful for my family. They are there for me during rough time and easy time. They don't judge and that's what is the best. 3) I'm thankful for all my friends. They are like family to me. Some of them are family because we have known each other for so long we've adopted each other. 4) I'm thankful for the fact that I was able to have the surgery I had. That I have the opportunity to start a healthy life so that I can spend more and more time with my daughter, family and friends. 5) I'm thankful for the fact I live in a country where am able to be the biggest B*%$# and not get stoned, canned, whipped or killed.

Home alone

Big Momma is unemployed right now. Sitting at home daily while Little Momma is at school. Playing on the computer, looking around the house at the things I should be doing but am not doing. I've had a great time these last few weeks talking and catching up with my friends, catching up on my shows. Now I'm all caught up and ready for something real to do. Like a job. I've applied for a few jobs and am anxiously waiting for someone to call me and give me a interview. Then call and offer me the damn job.

Where have I been?

Big Momma has been having a crazy hectic life. I have had surgery so that Big Momma can be a skinnier, healthier Momma. Lost 100 pounds so far! Have had a little bit of hurdles to get over. Dehydration and ulcer. But Momma is getting there. We moved, Little Momma started a new school. Little Momma is having some transition issues still. But she's getting there. Her biggest issue is that the kids are curious about her. They ask questions about her Dad and she doesn't like to talk about him understandably. So we are working on what to say to those kids, and how to handle those feelings. No she still hasn't seen him. And there is another warrant out of him for not paying his child support and not showing up to court. And apparently this winner is out making more kids. I have chosen not to share this with Little Momma because he is having this with his little sisters mother. No need to tell her there is another child out there for him to ignore her for. Big Momma is taking the high road here. He's gonna do what he's gonna do, clearly Little Momma isn't a interest for him. But that's ok. Because we are surrounding ourselves with those who we love and love us back. Little Momma did meet her Nana (paternal grandmother). They had a great time spending the afternoon together and we have kept in touch. Nana lives far away, L.I., so she doesn't see her often. But her Nana sent her a card and we send texts to one another. I fully support this relationship as long as Nana plans on staying around. And from what I am seeing, she's in for the long haul. Ready for live to settle down a bit. It will help to settle when we get the rest of this new apartment unpacked and settled in to. Hoping it will happen soon.

Life

Lil Momma saw her donor for the first time sense 2010 and she was so excited. We ran into him on the street. He attempted to make a play date before that but as usual screwed it up. In February she meet her Nana from his side of the family. We were in the city and we met up for dinner. Can I just say that not only am I excited about it but it confirms that she looks just like his side of the family. Things seem to be going the way they are supposed to be. Big Momma is just along or the ride, still single but ok with it. Just looking forward to what the future brings, one day at a time.