The dark void

Lately I've been in a dark void. Feeling like life isn't going to change. No job, no child support (not a surprise really), a endless cycle of feeling alone, unable to take care of my child, and just completely worthless. Missing things that are important to the people in my life because I can't afford to do them. Just living in a small black void, falling farther and farther down with each application in and no call for a interview. Finally things start falling into place, I get a job for a few days of the week, not the best job but a job. I find a place. A nice place for Sage and I. And I have these amazing neighbors. People who are willing to help those who need it. Without asking for anything in return. Life is starting to look good. With things looking up for a change I'm realizing that while I was in a void, I choice how far, and how dark the void is. You may be in a place where there is hopelessness and despair, but only you can see the light at the top. Only you have control of how far away the top is. While working where I am is FAR from my dream job, it's a job. It's a place where I can say, yes I'm in the damn void. But I can reach my hand up and grab the edge and get myself out. By taking a job that is 'beneath' me and taking it one day at a time. So I want to take this moment to say to all of you that feel they are in the void, keep your hand up. Reach for that ledge. Just do what you have to do for the moment and take it one day at a time. It will get much better. When your down the only way you can go is up. Period.