Friday, December 30, 2011

New Years.....

Well 2012 we are coming. Just a couple more days. I don't know about all you, but this is the time that Big Momma sits down and starts to think about what it is that I want to do next year as my "resolution". And basically I make up things that I will never do. So this year, I'm going to make Five Promises to myself.

I promise to loose weight.
I promise to read more.
I promise to write more.
I promise to travel more.
I promise to LIVE more.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Revalations

I watched the most amazing video today, a video that made me think.
If my life ended tomorrow, am I proud of what I have done? Who I am? Is there anything that I wish I would have done?
And the answer to all three questions.....is yes.
I'm totally proud of all that I have done, I'm a great single mother, I got my associates degree, worked and raised my beautiful daughter who is smart, friendly and just in general amazing.
I'm very proud of who I am, I'm a good person who has amazing friends and a great family. I treat people well and I am generous.
Is there stuff that I still want to do? Of course. About a million. Who can sit there and say that they have done EVERY single thing they want to do? Certainly not anyone that I know.
But what Big Momma does know, is that I'm going to continue to live like this. Making myself proud, doing great things with my family and friends, and hopefully getting at least a dozen out of the million things that I want to do out of the way.

Monday, December 26, 2011

When will I learn

So I thought I met someone. He was really nice at first, sweet and all. He made all the right moves and everything......then suddenly he got all weird and shady. Ignoring all my calls, not texting like normal.
Another one bites the dust. But I am gonna keep the hope alive? Or should I just give it up?

Merry Christmas

Little Momma had a amazing Christmas! Telling me over and over again how lucky she was and how it was the best Christmas ever! And THAT for Big Momma makes it the best Christmas ever.

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Happy Holidays

I hope that all of you readers are remembering the important things in this time. It's not about the gifts, pending on how religious you are it's not about religion. It's about making memories with your family. Taking these moments that everyone is being nice to one another, and keeping those better memories in the lead of those bad memories.
Take Big Mommas advice and day by day do your best to make those memories with your family. Remember how important they really are, taking their bad and all.
I hope you all have a wonderful wonderful Holiday Seasons, no matter what it is that you celebrate.

Monday, December 5, 2011

Tweedle Dee and Tweedle Dum

I seem to know every crazy man in the great state of New York. I must have a giant radar on my head that say "I will date every crazy in NY."
Does anyone know how to turn this off? hehehehe
Big Momma is all over being with morons. Meeting idiots,dating idiots, wanting to fall for idiots.
I'm starting to power myself up for next year, so that Big Momma can make a change. Get rid of the losers. Move on to winners.
Seriously everyone, Big Momma dated once years and years ago, (did I mention YEARS!) who was cute, funny and (COUGHgoodinbedCOUGH) but dumb as a box of rocks. He thought one could drive to England. Yes I said drive. Swear to god. Shortly after that I had a talk with myself. I could find better. AT least someone who knows you cant drive over the ocean. LOL
But alas, Big Momma didn't learn. Maybe I will some day.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

The Stupidty of Men

More and more men it seems that this page is turning into a man bashing site. And I cant seem to help it.
Big Momma is a magnet for the stupidest men in the history of the world. Why oh why is a man going to come meet you, talk on the phone with his friends and chat on his dating website in front of you? Like seriously. SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!
Where are all the good men? The educated hard working men that want to be with a woman who has morals and doesn't want to waste her time with drama and worrying whether or not she can trust him.
A man who takes a woman on a date and holds her during a scary movie. Someone who isn't trying to be ghetto or hood.
Woman deserve to be treated with respect and with kindness. All any of us really want is someone treat us the right way. The same way men say they want to be treated. Maybe if we all start treating them the way they treat us they will get the hint.
No wonder I'm so bitter and twisted.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Seeing is beleving

So this summer Big Momma went to the State Fair with Lil Momma for her first concert, Selena Gomez, and I saw a Psychic. The Psychic told me that I would find my true love in a few months. Six to eight to be a quote.
So here I sit wondering who I'm going to meet that's going to be my love. And trying to keep a open mind that this might not be happening.
Can't explain how disappointed I will be. She told me that I have never had love before. So if that wasn't love I'm screwed.
But the next man is supposed to be the one. The true love I have been waiting for. Or so she says.
So I sit here and wait for him.
I hope he knows my address.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Silly Rabbit Trix Are For Kids

Wow. So Big Momma is getting out and about and trying to get a new man.
And then I meet someone who is a idiot. Actually several idiots. And I have no idea how I continue to meet them. I make it very clear about how Big Momma is not looking for games, drama ect. And apparently that's code for a bed buddy.
So clearly there is something in the new code or what not that I totally missed.
When Big Momma say's no drama, or games, that's what I mean.
I'm looking for a man to spend the rest of my life with. Someone that I will grow old with. A man that will have more kids with me, share Lil Momma with me. Someone who will share my secrets, faults, ups, downs, joys and sorrows.
Just like everyone else is looking for.
So why can't I find it? Why do I always find men who are looking for bed partners, someone to mentally or physically abuse, someone to treat like a....slave for lack of a better term.
Big Momma has more to give. I'm 30 years old, I am aiming for better things in my life, working full time, going to school full time. I treat everyone with respect until you ruin that right. I do anything for my friends and family. My close friends trust me. They know that Big Momma wont tell my secrets and can trust me very much.
So alas I allow myself to try hard to put myself out there and meet someone. One more time, trying to meet one person.
Not just one person.
The Person

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Little Momma's Voices

So Little Momma tells me that she's talking to God!

So for some back ground information, WE ARE NOT religious. I have faith, and in my faith I keep in mind that there are millions of people out there who all have their own faith. So how are all these different types of religions and faiths wrong? I'm just keeping my options open. ;) that way all the roads are covered.

Well now out of no where she's telling me that she's hearing him and talking to him. LOL And that he's talking to her I want to know where she's getting it from. Why does she think she can talk to God. And who taught her about him?

How does someone teach their child about God at five? How does someone keep things in a easy perspective and let their child figure things out? Let them make up their own mind?

Please feel free to send me suggestions. Cause right now Big Momma is at a impasse.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

The Pumpkin Farm Tradition

Every year, as tradition, Lil Momma and I go to the pumpkin farm. There are hayrides, corn maze, haunted house and a few other things. As well as the animals, food and of course pumpkins.
Only this year it seemed boring. Like it was more work to go then fun. Should I start breaking tradition and not go next year? How many years can you see the same old pumpkins dressed in a costume?
But what about tradition? It's important to keep tradition. I went myself as a kid. And take it from me there's not much to do around here to begin with.
I guess next year time will tell.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Lazy Day's

So far we are enjoying our lazy day to the fullest. Relaxing at home, reading, watching movies, playing the Wii. :)
Not gonna lie, it get's hard to take lazy days. I feel like we should be doing something, going somewhere, visiting with someone. But Big Momma needs these lazy days to relax and figure out what homework and what not.
Lil Momma enjoys when she doesn't have to share me so much. So I'm gonna kick back and try to enjoy and not worry about things so much.
Besides if people wanted to visit with us that bad they would come here right?

Friday, October 21, 2011

Time Management

Okay so I know this is something that everyone strugglezs with, Big Momma is not alone in this boat.
But damn am I busy. Work, school for both Mommas, and then friends. Where does it all fit in?
I finally have Lil Momma in nothing, no swim, no soccer, no dance. Although I'm debating on getting her into indoor soccer once a week. Want to keep her active and not bored during the winter months.
But with me going to school for my Bachelors and working full time, I'm lucky I have time to pee let alone take her anywhere.
So I have devised a plan, sadly lol, I'm going to schedule in my planner the times for each activity that I'm going to do for either of us. Literaly fill my days by the hour until schools over. That way nothing is missed. LOL and these are the days of MY life. ;)

Monday, October 17, 2011

Taking Lil Momma to the City

What a weekend! I took Lil Momma to the Big Apple, and she didn't want to come home! LOL
"Everywhere we go there's shopping!" Oh the mouths of babes. How is it that my five year old has her shopping jeans on already? Big Momma doesn't shop like all that. To her dismay we came home after a short weekend of spending my whole pay check between the amazing wax museum, the Hello Kitty store and Toy's R Us.
For those of you who have not made the venture into the wonderful world of New York City, it's a must. Time Square, no matter how much D disagrees, is great. Everything you could need, in one area.
But no matter how great it is, just like anything else, what is great must be done in a small dose.
So alas, I had to do some slick talking as to how much better where we live, in our little town where you have to drive to the shopping as opposed to just walking out your front door. And luckily it really didn't matter, I'm Big Momma and what I say goes! LOL Pure and simple.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Laughing Moment

It's been a interesting week or so. Getting caught up in the life of Little Momma, Soccer Tuesdays and Thursdays, Swim on Saturdays, Big Momma works Five days a week and has online classes, Little Momma has her Soccer and her Swim and her Kindergarten.
Plus all the wonderful appointments in between. So the new schedule needless to say has been a adjustment for us both the last few weeks. We are making it work.
Well today, feeling a little drained and tired after having my huge (4'2 70lbs) 5 year old sleeping in my bed last night, had a long day. I pick her up from after school and Lil Momma looks a little stressed herself. So I ask how her day was. And without missing a beat she looks me dead in the face and says "I'm not going back to school any more because it's too much work and they wont let me play with my Barbies during the day. My teacher said I have to wait until recess." hahahahahahahahahahahaha After a moment or two of composing myself I explained that school is not a time for running around and playing Barbies, it's a time for learning, and all I could think was "Damn I sound like my mother!" So tomorrow we are gonna give school another try! LOL and Big Momma had her laugh of the day at the expense of the school and Barbie!

Sunday, September 11, 2011

My Kindergartner

Lil Momma is officially a Kindergartner. And Big Momma is having a hard time cutting the strings. hehehehe A really hard time. I will admit that I spoke with my coworkers and I wanted to call the school and see how she was doing. I was antsy and wanted to leave work early and just peek in and see how she was doing. Just peek in and see how it was going. LOL Is that so wrong? Am I the only mother in the world that wants to see how her daughter/son is doing on their first day of kindergarten? I think not!
So the proud excited mother that I am drove a little bit over the speed limit and got to her after school really fast and about skipped up the side walk to pick her up and ask her all about it! Lmao, I go in I sign her out really quick and try my best to hold my excitement in. I ask her on my way out the door how her first day of school was, and low and behold the years and years of meanness that I slung at my dear old Mother came back on me and I got the dreaded heartbreaking response of "Nothing."
My balloon burst into a million pieces I swear to god. Big Momma was heart broken. I immediately text my best friend who laughed her hardest at me and said "Welcome to Motherhood of a School Aged Child" (even though she has no children herself!) But I remember doing the same EXACT thing to my mother myself. No matter how old I may be.
Man oh man.

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Hand in Hand

There are many people out there right now that are struggling. Big Momma isn't the only one. Your not the only one. There are tons of people, friends, neighbors, family.
Some people are barley feeding their families.
And as a friend, and I take it very seriously, I think that when another friend is in need that you do all you can. Regardless of weather or not I'm a single mother. Struggling herself. Things need to be done. You need to make sure kids are fed. Yours, your god children or not.
So please, this is my plea to any and all of you that are out there reading this. Please help out your neighbor, if you see that they need some help, leave a bag of groceries on their porch,that kind of thing.
It's these little things that make the world to go around. Just a little step, take out some cans from the pantry, maybe make a donation to the closest food pantry.
These little steps will help the world, for everyone.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Book Club

Well here I go again, trying to start yet another book club. I have some people that say they are going to come. But we all know how that goes. That doesn't mean much.
Big Momma has learned that if you want anyone to show up you need to invite twice the amount of people you want there. LOL Otherwise your all on your own.
Our first book is going to be "Homer & Langley" by E.L. Doctorow. I hear nothing but good things about it. So here's to hoping that it's as good as people say it is. :)

Friday, September 2, 2011

A good Momma

So Big Momma sucked it up and went to a concert with Lil Momma. Selena Gomez to be exact.
Honestly it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it was going to be. She was good, dancers were good, and she even thanked the parents for "putting up with her" and bringing their kids.
Lil Momma had a blast. I will warn you though, 5 is young for a concert. The noise level got to be a little much for her there towards the end. She was extremely confused by all the shrieking fans of girls, I just told her she would understand in a few years or so! LOL
On a Big Momma note, I'm finally able to leave a job that I have not been happy in for quite some time. So I'm excited about that. Now instead of working two part time jobs, I will have one full time job. And yes, yes I did it! I'm enrolled for my Bachelors Degree. I cant quite beleive it myself. If you asked me years ago while I was in High School or hell even after that before I had Lil Momma if I ever thought I would be getting schooling like this I would laugh in your face. I HATED school.
But with aging, and having Lil Momma I realize how important it is for me to get that education. I need to bring home the dough and take care of us! And we all know Big Momma deserves the best! heheheh
Happy Labor Day Weekend Ya'll! Stay safe and be happy the kids are going back to school soon! ;)

Sunday, August 21, 2011

People

Big Momma is sitting here at 10pm wondering what the hell is wrong with people. Why they don't follow their bond and do what they say. Why they are so obsessed with things that really have little or no meaning in life any more.
A date doesn't mean sitting in a park and talking and then trying to get a feel up or trying to get Big Momma to feel you back.
A date is where YOU come pick up big Momma and take her out to dinner and then we walk somewhere in public and talk about our likes and our dislikes. We ask each other questions and I wonder if I will let you kiss me and you wonder if you will get the kiss.
You don't ask me about sex. What is wrong with the world these days? Or is it what is wrong with Big Momma? Is Big Momma to old fashioned? I'm trying really hard to understand that we talked for a whole month before hand. But at the same time. We met once. What's with society today where it's except able to think that I'm going to do anything with you let alone let you do anything to me, after meeting ONCE?
Tell me world. Is it Big Momma that has to change? Or is it the world?
Some times I just don't know.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Random-ness

Lil Momma has bottom teeth that are coming in. Well let's be honest. Her one bottom tooth is in. Like almost all the way in. And her other bottom tooth is almost broken in. Not either on of those bottom teeth are loose. But oddly enough her top teeth are getting loose! LOL I just don't under stand it. It's beyond me really. Big Momma did take her to the dentist because I was concerned that she would have to get her teeth pulled. But they said that things were going they way that they were supposed to be going. And that by the time that she was in school her teeth will be out and everything will be fine. So we'll see. I will keep you posted.

As for Big Momma, I will be starting my BA in September! I'm so excited! :) Plus I also have a date! Hopefully all goes well. Wish me luck!

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Something fun and new to do! (New to Big Momma anyway!)

Atlas Quest: A Letterboxing Community
http://www.atlasquest.com/

So here I am at work the other day and someone comes in asking for "The Pirates Wife". I have no idea what they are looking for but a co-worker pulls down this old chest that has a Atlas printed on in. Inside this chest is a black bag with a Large Stamp, an ink pad and a book with all types of pages in it that are stamped.

Being noisy like I am, I asked what they were doing.

They explained this wonderful, inexpensive community called Letterboxing. It's all over the world. They go to different towns, city, states and follow the clues and find the stamp. Sometimes they are in parks, stores or even around places like Disney. Then you stamp your book put your date and place where you got it. You then take YOUR stamp and stamp their book and put your Letterboxing name and where your from.

How neat is that?! You will find that when you put in your information on the website there is (at least around us) a huge number of boxes in your area. It's free to register and it's free to do. Minus the price of your stamp, ink pad and stamp book. There is a easy way to keep track of what you have found and what you cant find. A community blog and so much more.

Lil Momma and I are going to start ours this weekend with the fun stuff right here in our area. Then when we go on vacations (NYC in October) we will have fun finding new things AND new stamps!

Swear by these!

Monday, July 25, 2011

Rough Days

Well clearly it's been awhile. Things here have been....for a lack of a better word BLAH.

Working two jobs still. Which isn't that bad. I can live with that. What I can't live with is that I work two jobs and still have no money.

People where has all the money gone?! A friend of mine commented to me that "You have to be rich to enjoy the amusement parks, and fairs these days." And isn't that turning into the truth. My family used to do that with us all the time, "cheap vacations," yeah not so much any more. Games are $5 or more, rides-hmpf forget it.
I did an expense report on my household, working the two jobs, my car loan, rent, electric and ect. I'm IN THE HOLE!!!! Just with the necessary expenses, not extras. Now I know I'm not living outside my means because honestly I know I'm broke. (Just stating the fact, not trying to illicit sympathy.) I get paid more then minimum wage. I work 40 hours a week, pay my taxes and everything just like the next Joe.

My question though is, why are things so expensive? If we are ALL broke, across the nation, then why are we paying so much for shit? Food, gas, ect. It's been suggested to "coupon clip", lol okay fine. But I don't want THREE of something to get the discount. I want one. See what I'm getting at? You have to spend 2x more then what you would to get a .75 discount? I'll just take one thanks.
I know that I'm not the only one that is broke. But guess what, your reading my blog so I'm allowed to bitch! :)

On a positive side of this note, I'm starting my Bachelors Degree come hell or high water in September. :) I'm very, very excited about this time, I feel like even though I'm working full time I still need this for me. To educate myself of course, and to get myself into the job I want.

Lil Momma starts school in a little over a month. I'm very anxious about this. I know she's going to do well. She's going to learn so much so quickly, and she's going to flourish with all these new friends :) But I also know that going to school comes, the learning from other children. Santa's not real, or the Easter Bunny. What drugs are, christ what SEX is. I know I know, it's just kindergarten right?! You rode the public school bus? MMMMMMMMHMMMMM That's what I thought. I learned everything I needed on the playground and on the bus. I'm cutting some of this by a little because I'm dropping her off and picking her up, we live across the street why even try to convince the bus garage to pick her up before they turn into the driveway of the school.

I just know that this is the end of what is the innocence of my Lil Momma. The years are going to fly by and before I know it my little girl, will be a little woman. And I will be clinging to the memory of her going to kindergarten.

LOL I know that ya'll must be laughing at me right now. As I'm laughing at myself for writing this. But it's something that is weighing on me. And after all :) This is my blog!

Sunday, June 12, 2011

It's a two-fer

As reality see’s it for Big Momma, she is alone for a while more. I tried yet again to date, and that blew up in my face like a small child with a firecracker with a short fuse.

Not only did I pay for my own dinner and appetizer, I paid for my own movie ticket and snacks at the movie. This dude get’s in to the damn movie for free and eats all but two pieces of my damn appetizer. You have got to be out of your damn mind.

Gentlemen let me give you a little bit of advice: When you tell a woman your going to take her on a date, and YOU even call it a date, don’t make the girl pay for it. Not cool. Not even close. You wont get your hand held, a kiss or a lay. Just wont happen. So don’t try.

Back Story: I have known said man for over 12 years. We have decided to take things to the next level. We live in different states but have decided not to let that get in the way. He came up for the weekend and was staying at my place in Lil Momma’s room. Decided to take it slow cause it’s a big change for the both of us. Well honestly for me. Apparently he’s “loved me for a long time”. Well things were not as they all seemed.

Date night:

Dinner: I order, He orders. We have a appetizer. He eats all but two pieces of the appetizer. No biggie right? Tis what it is. Then the meal comes. We eat and pass on dessert. Check comes. He literally throws down like $13 on a $50 check and tells me he’s gonna meet me at the door cause he’s gotta go to the bathroom.

Movie: We get to the movies and I tell them I want one to see the movie I want and turn to him and he’s in a totally different line talking to a different teller showing his movie reviewer pass so he can get in for free! Ummmmm yet again paying for myself on our date.

Swear to god. AND TO MAKE THE REALITY OF THE SISUATION WORSE he has the cajones to tell me that he met someone the week before that he has feelings for and wants to be with during dinner. All the while he’s trying to hold my hand. Um No. Then when that doesn’t work he reaches his arm around me, like I wanted to be closer to you. Seriously?! So as his arm is around me he leans in and blows on my ear and slowly leans closer to kiss on my neck.

So Big Momma did the only thing she could, she started to be mean. J hehehehehe. I got out the Berry and started getting in touch with my girls and giving them the 411. Ignoring him as much as possible. Totally over the entire evening. Ready to go home and to bed.

So when it’s time to go home we watch a movie and give a wide bearth. I let him have the couch and I sit in a chair on the other side of my living room. Clearly not taking the sign he tries to sit with me on the chair. I tell him he has plenty of room on the couch and to make himself comfy. LOL. Eventually I go to bed and make it clear that I’m going A-L-O-N-E. I wake up in the morning and the FREAKE O is watching me sleep. WHAT???!!!!! Who does that shit! He even admitted that he had been there for like 15 minutes!

So Big Momma takes the Berry and tells him after locking herself in the bathroom that he needs to pack his shit up and leave and not call again. Just get out and go. And thank god he did.

Anyone who reads this please learn from me: NEVER EVER EVER no matter how long you know them let them in your house. EVER! EVER EVER.

Trust me.

5-31-11 Poor Life

Yet again life is reminding me what it is to be poor. Not that Big Momma needs the reminder. I remember every day what it’s like to be poor.
But lately it’s seeming harder and harder to pay those bills. And they seem to come faster and faster in the mail. Where is the month in between? Didn’t a month consist of 30 days? Whatever happened to that?
I understand that the reality of the situation is that everyone is as poor as me and that they cant afford their bills too seriously. Please oh please tell me I’m not the only one feeling that 30 day’s goes as fast as 30 minutes here.
No matter what you do, no matter how much you work. There is no catching up and there is no getting all them paid and on time.
We’ll rest assured world your not the only one. Big Momma and the rest of the Inner Circle of Momma is feeling the same pain. Sadly.
One day at a time, one step at a time and maybe with some sort of a miracle we will have a break.
6-6-11

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

BeBe's Kid's

So once my Satanic boss knocked me from 40 hours down to 20 hours. So then I got a new job. A part time job. At a, quite frankly lower place. A gas station. I went to work here with my fast professional past. Knowing that it wouldn't be the same. But going in prepared to do my job and getting the check at the end of the week.
Well low and behold it didn't come higher then my expectations.
My "boss" on the exact day of filling out my new hire papers welcomed me to the "F^%&ing Black Club" when she saw that I had a mixed child. Then she proceeded to point out and name all the other girls that I worked with that slept with who F*&^ Black men. Then instead of training me the right way and giving me a handbook I was shown all the short cuts on how to make it look done and not exactly done and told my handbook would come. (ummmm about a month and a half later and still no handbook) Same day as I was being "trained" (seriously I will use this term loosely) on how to stock the coolers (total joke, follow the pictures you morons!), I was welcome to the stories of how the staff party together at the managers house and have orgies together at her house. SERIOUSLY?????? OMG. I'm not only the oldest person working there at 30 years old, I'm used to having younger managers, I've gotten over that. I'm okay with that. I'm NOT okay with having to work with this crap.
Then the NEXT day. The "people in charge" leave me with trainers and I'm privy to listening to all these kids (by kids I mean fresh from NYC and some locals from 18-20) talking about sleeping with each other, strangers, blow jobs, school, and even talking to customers and calling each other Ninja's. I had to tell one kid to watch his mouth cause a poor little old lady about had a heart attack. So when mentioned to a manager the excuse was "He's from the city" as mentioned before. We'll I'm sorry. I'm not gonna take that shit. Not at all. Period. Over it. I don't care where I work. I don't care who I work with. You need to be professional.
BeBe's Kids need to be taught better. So this message is for you Mothers and fathers. If need to know, don't be afraid. Put soap in that kids mouth. Spank them. Ground them. Do what you have to do. Cause otherwise this will be your child someone will beat this hell out of your kid. Might be me, might be someone else. But it will happen. Don't let your kid be a BeBe Kid.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Back, Changes and Fun Mommy Time

Hey guys! Been crazy busy! Got knocked down to 20 hrs at one job which was awful. Cause let's be honest I'm working my ass off this job, for now pay, no appreciation. And then to be knocked down to 20 hrs at the same work load PLUS more. WOW. I had to get another job and work at a (DEEP BREATHE) gas station with college kids who do not a damn thing but talk about sleep with one another and swear in front of customers. Kid you not. One kid said Ninja (I refuse to say the other word) and my boss's excuse was "He's from the city". Um excuse me? So it's okay to come in to work now and talk like that in front of your customers? I don't think so. I don't care where you work. You need to watch your damn mouth and do your job. Period. So Big Momma is pushing her resume out there. I have put over 60, that's right, 60 different jobs and it's been a month still in the same boat. Pray I don't start killing college kids from the city. Seriously.
On a positive note I got to see my idol. That's right folks. I got to see Lisa Lampanelli Live! It was fanfuckingtastic. It was great. I loved it. She had me laughing more then I have laughed in years! I recommend to anyone out there to go see her. Then icing on the cake I got her book "Chocolate Please: My adventures in Food, Fat, and Freaks" Signed! I'm excited to start reading it! Seriously though. If you have no desire to be all up tight and worry about being snotty, just want to have a night to laugh and have a good night. Do it, go see her. She's on Twitter, YouTube, and Comedy Central. She's known as the Queen of Mean and she's the Roast Master.
I hope to be more faithful on here. I really do. But alas working two jobs and trying to go back to school makes things hard. Cut a bitch some slack! ;)

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Milestones

In life there are different milestones for everyone. Some based on gender, religion, race, and age. Lil Momma is reaching her first this week. She's going to be 5 on Friday. :)
The next one she will have to look forward to will be her 13th which will welcome her into the Teens, then there's 16 when she can get her learners permit, 18 when she can vote, and then finally 21 for when she will be legally allowed to drink.
With her first milestone coming up she has decided to celebrate it at the good old Chuck E Cheese, games, pizza and prizes.
Big Momma on the other hand. I'm trying to just cope with the fact that my "Baby" is old enough to start kindergarten, sleep in her own bed, doesn't wear diapers, she can ride the school bus and learn that Santa is not real from the older kids. She's not a baby anymore. No matter how much I wish she was. Reality has set in. Lil Momma is growing up.
For all of you out there with the little ones. Take pictures, lots and lots of them. Hug them, squeeze them, hold them ALL the time. No matter what those books say ;) Because it goes so fast. And before you know it, that baby your burping and changing their diapers, your gonna be putting on the school bus and helping with homework.

Monday, February 7, 2011

The Fun Mommy!

Yeah that's Big Momma! The Fun Momma! All the kids in Lil Momma's class want to come to her house and spend the night. The boys too. :)
And I'm a pretty cool Mother if I do say so myself. But Big Momma draws a line a Lil Momma's boy friends (big difference between boyfriends and boy friends) spending the night. I know that there are some parents out there that don't see an issue with this, and with children at her age four soon to be five, there is no "tension". But I don't think that it's a good idea. If you start it young then they will think that it is always a good idea. And it's not.
There are a number of parents in her class thankfully that share this same way of thinking that I do, and some that look at me like I have a chicken growing out of my forehead. To those parents I say this. To each their own.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Seriously?

Big Momma says this a lot but I feel like people don't quite understand it. Don't say something you don't mean. If you don't like a person don't pretend you do. Cause when you get caught, your gonna feel like a fool.
I'm not going to pretend to like you if I don't like you. And I'm not going to say something to you that isn't true. I will say it to your face. Not behind your back.
And with that said I expect the same in return.

Monday, January 31, 2011

I Love NY

Okay all sarcasm aside, in the Spring, Fall and MOST of the Summer New York is AMAZING. The lake is where you will find Big Momma with Lil Momma running around on the play ground or swimming in said lake. But during the winter. BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! It's 13 degrees at this time and the reports coming in is that the temperature is going to not only drop but with the next two days there's going to be snow AND freezing rain.
Um Mother Nature, like snow isn't enough? You have to put freezing rain on top of that? Wtf? sheesh!
Okay off the weather. Just a reminder to all you wonderful women out there who have landed your Prince Charming. He's not psychic. My cousin's soon to be wife just messaged me saying "HELP! He's not giving me his input on the Wedding plans." "Did you ask him for help with the Wedding plans?" And she gave me this round about vague answer which meant no or she gave HIM a round about vague help me with the Wedding plans. People, people! Listen up! Men OR Women, 9 times out of 10 your spouse is NOT Psychic. Therefore they are not reading your mind and do not know you would like help in the Wedding plans, or help figuring out where to go for the weekend getaway or whatever. Always be honest with your partner, they love you for a reason, guessing that your honesty is part of it. :) Worse comes to worse they are honest back and say that they don't want to and then that leads to why. Maybe they are uncomfortable or afraid they will mess something up. Either way you wont know until you say something. Give them the same as you would want in return. :)

Monday, January 24, 2011

Holy Freezing Cold Batman!

Wow. The 8 block walk in to work today was BRUTAL for Big Momma. -9 is never a nice temperature to be walking in. My nose froze shut, legs are STILL frozen. Kids all over the county are on a delay or schools are closed because it's so cold. Even before the windchill kicks in. It's days like this that make Big Momma want to move somewhere nice and warm. Like Jamaica, or Tahiti. :) LOL. It's just too much.
Lil Momma had a nice fun filled weekend. Made it through her lessons and then off to her Grandparents house. We pull in the driveway and it's plowed for the first time all winter. :) So I have to give a nice shout out to whomever it was that was kind enough to plow their driveway. You left no note, did a great job and didn't get paid. Thank you for doing this kindness for my parents. Not many people do nice things without being asked to any more!
Lil Momma is getting so excited for her birthday party at Chuck E Cheese this year. And for the family trip to Disney in October. This is going to be a year of many many blessings. I want to do as many amazing things with her as I can for as long as I can. Make each memory special and just as good as the next. And I wont lie, I think I'm more excited about Disney thne she is! LOL.
Stay warm ya'll. Bundle up and let your car warm up those extra fifteen minutes today. And please please be safe.

ATTETION: A creeper is on the loose in Lansing!!!!!!!

http://www.theithacajournal.com/

Please keep your eyes out for this man. Let's keep our communities safe!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

What Is The World Coming To?

Okay so Big Momma is in a snit today. I'm hearing all these things in the news and I'm like I cant even beleive that this is up for discussion!!!!!!!
First of all let's talk about this single mother who won the Mega Millions and now has to share it with her wife beating ex. I get that they are separated and not legally divorced. But at the same time he is NOT paying child support and she has pressed charges for abuse. So PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE explain to me why this MF deserves one cent of her good fortune? She's taking care of those two children on her own because this SOB beat her and went against his vows. And now all of a sudden he's allowed to profit off this and come back in her life? NO, I think not. Holly girl, FIGHT THIS! I'm sure you would have the support of millions of Americans behind you.
Another thing that I read was that a Nebraska law maker is trying to pass a law that allows school administrators, teachers and security staff to carry concealed handguns in schools. Seriously? They should be counting their lucky stars that Big Momma is just a blogger with a little voice. Because this is the craziest idea I have ever heard. Just some questions for you Mr. Law Maker, What happens if the children get a hold of those guns? Because we all know accidents happen. Or if a teacher goes crazy and shoots up the school? Or a teacher, which has been known to happen on HOW MANY OCCASIONS, uses excessive force and oh I don't know PULLS THAT GUN AND SHOOTS A KID! Come on! Kids aren't dumb. They can get to these things. On your person or not. They can get in child proof medical bottles, in little gun safes, all kinds of things. Please use your head. This is a horrible idea. A school is not a war zone. If you are having that many problems in your schools then it's time to look at the staff and the structure that you have going on in that school zone. If you have issues with certain students find out why! Are they bored? To far behind? Are they having issues at home? Do your damn job don't turn our schools into a place that I wouldn't even want to walk into.
Seriously, people, WTF is wrong with you?

Monday, January 17, 2011






Lil Momma's Pre School Photo From 2009.

Nice Busy Weekend

Big Momma is in desperate need of a time out. lol
I was going going going all weekend. Lil Momma had her Dance and Swim Lessons. And then I rushed her to her Grandparents to spend the night. I then went to my BFFF's house to throw her baby shower, which thankfully was a great success. Then I went home to crash.
Sunday Big Momma, better late then NEVER, took down the Christmas Tree, went and got Lil Momma and spent some time with my parents. Then went home to do some laundry just before bed time. Sheesh. :) I was on my toes.
And I have to say with a nice pat on my back. I successfully got Lil Momma's 5th birthday planned for Chuckie E Cheese. She's excited and ready to go. LOL.
I think tonight it's going to be a breakfast for dinner night and we are gonna just relax. And be calm. And not rush or do anything. That sounds just perfect.

Friday, January 14, 2011

Second One For Today :)

http://www.slate.com/id/2281138/?gt1=38001

Give this a read, the article has some interesting test studies and results on it.

Darwin's Rape Whistle
Have women evolved to protect themselves from sexual assault?
By Jesse Bering

This About Sum's It Up

Everything I did in my life that was worthwhile I caught Hell for.
- Earl Warren

Isn't that the god's honest truth :) And if I might add, words to live by.
There are many things in this live that are worth trying that you could "catch hell for". Example: eating sweeties before breakfast, skipping school, standing up for what you beleive in (even if it means telling your parents they are wrong) and on and on.
Big Momma is a firm believer that some rules are just meant to be broken. When Lil Momma asks me for a treat before we head out the door and I drop her off at school. I don't always say no. Sometimes I let her have a little chocolate or two. She's still going to eat a healthy breakfast at school for one and for two I don't have to deal with her sugar rush. ;) And who said that chocolate is not meant for breakfast? Who exactly made that rule?
On occasion is it okay to skip school and just spend a day with your family? On a day that you don't have to turn in a major paper or have a huge test. Why not? Adults take mental health days all the time. Big Momma understands that Lil Momma would need them too. She's already asking for days to stay home with Mommy and cuddle all day :) Wish we could take more of those days. They are to be cherished and taken while you can. Because soon enough they will not be happening any more.
Live for the moment people. Even in that means breaking some rules and taking some Hell. It's worth it. ;)

Thursday, January 13, 2011

This and That

Big Momma is making some adjustments over the next few days to the page. May change the lay out, the colors, add pictures who knows.
But always feel free to leave your comments and YOUR opinions. I might not agree with them but they are free to be expressed here any way you like.
And please add your self as a follower. I like to see who's reading me. Other then my close circle of friends. lol
The snow is coming in large amounts lately and that has me in a funk. I need my sunshine. My winter blahs is kicking in. That and the fact that Lil Momma is going to be Five and I, Big Momma, (large sigh all dramatic like) I am going to be the big 3-0. I have no desire to want to leave my 20's behind. I enjoyed them. And I have a number of friends who inform me that it only get's better. I feel right now, at the cusp of being (gasp) 30, that they are liars. Can't I be 29 for just a while longer?????? What if I promise to not complain if I get like......four extra months of 29? Yeah didn't think so. (hmpf) Well if that's the case then I guess I'm just going to have to do something amazing and fabulous for my big 30. Details to come soon! ;)

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Lil Momma's Crush

Lil Momma had a play date with a very nice young man in her Pre K class yesterday. His Mom and I took the kids to the mall to get some dinner then we went to the bouncy house in the mall and let them work out some energy. While there Lil Momma took the opportunity to tell him that he's handsome. To which he replied that he was and I quote from the mouth of the four year old "I'm not handsome I'm sexy!" as he blushes and smiles coyly at her.
Where or where do kids come up with things like this? After laughing hysterically at the kids we shooed them to go and continue to play trying not to make a big deal about either of them know what Sexy is.
After our time is done we walk to a nice little store to get some little trinkets for Lil Momma. We treated our beau to the bouncy house so he was going to get her something nice. The young couple walked hand in hand into the store to pick out something. It was so cute and so sad at the same time.
My little girl already with her first crush. Big Momma is so not ready for that. I just had her didn't I? Wasn't I just in labor at the hospital screaming my head off in pain?
Apparently not. :)

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Life

The reality of life is it's to short. Big Momma knew a young man that passed yesterday with another person in a car accident. While choice that were made that may not have always been the best in his life or in anyones life. They are still choices that define us and make us the people that we are. They are the reasons that other's love us and cherish us, or don't. But in any event it's the fact of how quickly that can be taken away. So I wanted to take this moment to say hug the person next to you. Tell you child 100 extra times today how much you love them. Call a friend that you always mean to call but say "Oh I'm to busy but she/he know's I'm thinking about them. They know how crazy my life is. I'll call them later." Even send them that facebook message and just say Hi. It doesn't take much.
So to you my friends that read, and whomever happens across my blog;
HI.And thanks for reading. It means a lot. And you mean a lot. xoxoxoxo

Friday, January 7, 2011

Busy Weekend But Still Time for ME!!!!!

Looking forward to the weekend ahead. Lil Momma has Dance class, then swim class. She's having a friend over and then she's going to her grandparents so Big Momma can have some "Big Momma Time".
I'm very lucky in the fact that I have my supportive family so close to take her once a week so I'm able to have time to myself. I don't know if I would be sane if I didn't have time to just sit and listen to myself breathe. Not have to worry about getting to school on time, going to work on time. What lesson does she have? Getting her dinner fixed. LOL there's always and forever something.
During Big Momma Time I just be. If I want to read, I read. If I want to watch a scary movie, I watch it. Or if I want to do nothing at all but sit there and stare at the walls, that's what I will do. I used to use this time to go out and have a drink with my friends and go dancing. But then that wasn't really time for me. And no offense to my wonderful, amazing and dear friends, but this is time for ME, to do ME things. Not to listen to you vent or try to meet a man. I do that every other day of the week. And I love it and I love them. But this is time to listen to what I need. As apposed to what everyone else needs from me.
Everyone needs this time to just center themselves and get back on their even plane.
So take some You Time this weekend, and let me know how it works out for you! :)

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Karma

I'm a huge fan of Do unto others as you would have done to you and If you do harm to someone, harm will come back to you three fold
But sometimes I feel Ms. Karma takes her sweet old time. Am I alone in this?
Example: I have a four year old that doesn't get to see her SD and he runs around without paying his child support, wearing new clothes and new kicks. How does that happen? And why doesn't Karma kick in?
Another Example: Big Momma's close personal friend has some major family issues. Like DEEP stuff. Family going to court telling judge she's Dead kinda stuff. Yet this has been going on for years and Karma hasn't kicked in there either.
Now Big Momma has faith. She has faith in a many of things. Most of all in the Universe making the wrongs right. Big Momma knows that the Mother Goddess will not let these injustices go on for long.
But in the mean time what do you do? What do you say? How do you keep your head up?
Here's Big Momma's new philosophy.
Trust: Have trust in yourself to be strong enough to not only get through it. But to come out on the other side better, and wiser.
Breathe: Instead of lashing out or jumping in your car to go and take care of the events yourself. Take a moment and breathe. Reflect on what Karma would do back. And realize that it's just not worth it. Two words here; Three Fold. Is going with your gut reaction worth the THREE things that will happen in you in return? No me thinks not.
Friends: There is a reason that you are blessed with friends. Just as much as you listen to their problems they are there to listen to yours. So don't be afraid to tell them what is going on so you can get some out side observances.
Big Momma has a feeling that like Karma, they will let you to just let fate take care of it.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

It's Just An Opinion

Big Momma has been following some of the news, not something I do often, and I'm as usual annoyed.
I read this cold morning in our local rag, that a aircraft carrier Captain has lost his job over video's that he made a couple years back. In said video his intention is to boost the moral of his men on his Naval ship with some joking videos. The videos have some not so kind language about homosexuals, women on women action, masturbation, and just basic......well dumb men stuff. Other crew men AND women participated in the making of these videos, which are now under the focus of the how world.
Now, I love the gays. I have many many friends that are gay. And as a women I, as many other women, don't appreciate being exploited in any way. With that said, the Captain was reported to have said that he has received complaints about these videos for years. So why are we JUST now doing something about it? Isn't this a little like finding out your daughter slipped out the bedroom window 15 years after she did it and then trying to put your 30 year old over your knee and spanking her? Something should have been done then. Because now it's showing that we are willing to take a stand, for women and for gays, just years later. We we are supposed to be some country that is leading the world by example, what kind of example does that set? Let them get away with it till they get caught? Come on people! Get with it! This is the kind of thing that needs to be addressed right away. Why wasn't it? Why did it slip through whatever loophole till now? Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr THIS is why Big Momma doesn't read the news.
And please feel free to comment all you would like. And yes, I mean you. I know you are reading this and you have loads of your own opinions. (He knows who he is.)
Still no response from the BM (NO not that kind of BM, Baby Momma's Silly). And thankfully Lil Momma has not said anything more about wanting more information about her siblings. I haven't given up total faith. Because when I do then I feel I may be giving up on the fact that people care about the future of their children. So one day at a time. While she is kissing the photo of her SD goodnight every night. I keep reminding myself that no matter what. You cant make someone be something they can't or won't be. You just be the best at what you can be. And hope that is enough.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Being the Bigger Person

Lil Momma is changing as she grows. As do all kids. And knowing that she has siblings out there (from her SD), has her asking questions. So this morning Big Momma sucked it up and sent some messages. Reaching out on Lil Momma's behalf and saying that she wants to play, and meet her siblings.
Her donor got around so there were two different messages. One to a woman that we have gotten together before with. With Lil Momma's little sister. And the other to the mother of her older sister and brother.
Now Big Momma plays the waiting game to see if I get a response. To be honest this was one of the hardest things I have done in a while. For different reason from the past and for clear reasons none of us get along. Although two of us try very hard for the sake of our daughters, I don't know how the other mother is going to react. So this should be interesting.
I'm willing to do what needs to be done for the sake of my daughter. And if that means sitting in a room with someone that I know has ill will towards me then so be it. Big Momma doesn't care. As long as there are no words for Lil Momma to hear. The children can have a very good relationship. And as siblings they should.
So here's to letting bygones be bygones and to families getting together. And to Big Momma staying the bigger person and not having to hurt anyone's feelings with the truth. ;)

Saturday, January 1, 2011

2011

Well what a way to ring in the New Year. With Lil Momma throwing a tantrum and throwing her boots at me screaming about how much she hates me, and she's only four! Little does she know as she get's old Big Momma is just gonna get worse and worse. I'm not going to let my child think it's okay for her to give something to another kid and then decide later she wants it back. Growing up in my hood that was called "Indian Giving" (and I AM part Native American) but whatever you want to call that, it's not right. So ensued the boot throwing and the crying and the screaming in front of my friends making me look like a moron. So Big Momma did the only thing she could. I packed up my daughter, without her boots on, threw her little screaming, kicking, crying, four year old butt in the car and buckled her in. Turned up the radio so I could drown her out and drove home.
Happy New Year. LOL